No 10 miles today

Bit annoyed because today was going to be *the day* and now tomorrow will have to be *the day*. Various events conspired to stopping me from running, including the fact it got dark and cold and after leaving a warm pub and by colleagues having drinks I couldn't convince myself to run more than 3 miles.

*sigh*

Anyway. Today's Monday weigh in is 189lbs.

And this week's rainbow plan looks like this:

Monday - 2 miles run (walk 2 miles home because I've forgotten oyster card, great)

Tuesday - 10 miles

Wednesday - rest 

Thursday - 5 miles

Friday - rest (I'm counting money for a work event)

Saturday - rest or cross

Sunday - 10 miles...one week to HALF MARATHON

Wardrobe clear out

I recently had to dress smartly for a serious meeting day we had at work and came to the conclusion...I can't.

This wasn't just a reflection of my discomfort in wearing "smart" clothes (I've always worked in casual offices) but due to the fact I've actually lost a stone/14lbs since I started this job and the smart clothes I bought when I was doing the interview rounds last year simply look baggy and so not particularly flattering. I eventually had to wear a smart black dress with a safety pin in the back to make it look reasonably fitted!

So today I'm having a clear out. And WOW do I have a lot of clothes to get rid of. And although half of me is happy how far I've come and the fact I've shrunk out of these clothes the other half is a bit like "erm...I have no clothes!".

The thing is I'm kind of in-between sizes and don't want to do a big shop until I've definitely gone down another size. At the moment I'm a size 16/14 on top and a 18/16 on bottom, I have no idea where I'll be eventually but being a definite 14 and 16 for now would be nice. Maybe I'll end up a 12 and 14 but that would be the "dream" situation, also fitting any trousers in Topshop's "tall" section (because you're not allowed to be both tall and fat in Topshop) would be cool.

So for now I'm going to leave off shopping til I've shrunk further and Ebay/chairty shops here I come!

Would you get a few items at an "in-between" weight or wait until you've lost some more?

Off scale victories

I must admit I've been getting a bit down on myself lately, although I've hit a really amazing low of 195.6, but rather than pleased I feel impatient if I'm honest!

I've also felt a bit "run out" from following my running plan but not sleeping well.

So out of all this unappreciation it was nice to have some non-scale related victorious recently:

1. Walking up a hill with a friend, he was out of breath, I wasn't, but I had been previously when climbing that hill.

2. Wore a dress I hadn't worn for ages and it was definitely looser, as in there used to be right round my midriff before and now it's slightly baggy.

3. Someone at work mentioned I looked like I'd lost weight and asked what diet I was following!

All good stuff, and I'm less than a stone (14lbs) from being in my healthy weight range!

Six for six

It is now the sixth month of the year so I shall group some thoughts in sixes.

I'm feeling a bit rubbish today so I'll start with THE GOOD:
1. Lowest weight so far for 2 days running 198.8lbs
2. I can wear shorts without leggings/tights and no-one screams and/or laughs

Skinny goat (thank you flattering mirror) in a messy room

3. Couch to 5k week 5 completed - I ran 20 whole minutes and it wasn't even that hard
4. I am so way ahead of where I need to be with half marathon training = I am awesome

5. The more I run the more great things I see round London

Floaty blocks at the Southbank Centre - Monday evening's run

6. Four days off work, thank you Queenie

THE BAD
1. Jubilee = jubilee party at work = eating A LOT of food today
2. Colleagues leaving work = cake and drinks = eating A LOT of food (and drinking) yesterday
3. Generally there is too much food at work, in fact someone bought me jelly babies to say thank you for a presentation I did last week

Outside: Aw, thanks, that's so nice of you!
Inside: Why would you do this to me?!

4. Binge days mean I'm losing weight at a snails pace
5. What if I lose weight and get gross loose skin? (ew)
6. Never mind loose skin, I'm still fat!

THE JUNE GOALS
1. Complete couch to 5k
2. Run a 10k (good boost from 5k, signed up for local one on the 16th)
3. Implement cunning "eat fruit instead of cake" plan at work

4. Get down to at least 195lbs
5. Keep doing occasional strength/abs training to decrease loose skin likelihood (ew)
6. Get body brush and scrub body regularly for nice exfoliated summer skin and to decrease loose skin likelihood (ew)

New goals

What's that? Everyone did their new goals at the start of January which makes this post rather late on the scene? Yeah well, that's the way this goat roles!

So having failed my Christmas goals I am going to have to reshuffle a bit. I'm still aiming for 170lbs at some point this year and also running a half marathon but I obviously need to break things down ("break it down!").

Key date and key weights:

Today - not sure, didn't get on the scales so we'll see tomorrow (it's about 207lbs)

20th March (me birfday!) -200lbs

25th March - 3 mile run

24th April ooooohhhhh New York - 193lbs (random number yes)

21st October - Run to the Beat half marathon

So the birthday is an obvious goal, losing a bit more by then would hopefully abate my "quarter life crisis", not that I'll be having one my life's pretty sorted, and getting more so with the weight loss! The 3 mile race is for sport relief in central London and something I'm doing with some friends. Finally I'm, going to NYC! So incredibly excited but also want to make sure I can make the most of New York shopping opportunities and, sadly, I don't want to be the only non-hot English girl on out trip (got to work the accent in the states).

Lastly but never leastly a couple of things were said to me this weekend:
"You're not fat anymore, you're just a bit chubs now, but definitely not a fatty." (My ever honest sister)
"You're stunning." (This one can be taken with a pinch of salt but still brings a smile to my face)

A post?!

This blog is alive, ALIVE!! (evil laughter fills the room)

So yes, a quick update about my mixed bag of a life,for now...

I didn't meet my Christmas goals. (booooo)

I did join a gym (and have actually been going)!

I had/still kind of have tonsillitis.

New job is awesome.
Weight is at 207lbs as of today.

I'm going to run a half marathon this year and get down to 170lbs :)